Whistler Mountain, a Year After

In the hush of snow, black spruce branches sweep

through silence. Gray bellied whiskey jacks

build their nests close to the trunks.

It’s their song that will surprise you—

both the whistle and warble—

any given day in winter.

Like this day, sky overcast, wind calm.

I ride to the top of the ski lift, the landscape

above tree line, a study in gray and white.

Coastal mountains peak and dip like meringue.

In every direction space opens.

How easy it is to get lost. To wander

into the wilderness and never come back.

I carve tight turns, then use all my strength

through the icy patches. My husband’s voice —

keep your weight forward, trust the edges of your skis

as if he were trailing behind me.

Why is it easier to be alone here

on the slopes of an unfamiliar mountain?

It’s a long run down to the boreal forest

where the whiskey jacks chatter, then scream

as a red squirrel approaches. They mob

the creature then disappear into the trees again

and quiet. I listen,

the cold slipping its icy fingers

through to my skin,

the sun a pale penny, a shadow of itself.


Credit: Red Wheelbarrow, Volume 20: Fall 2019