Midsummer, Above Boomer Creek

It’s late for mating season but still 

they dive and rise as in early spring. 

Kee-ah. Kee-ah—sears the hillsides 

before the red-shouldered hawks arrive. 

Drowns out even the crows.  I’m obsessed 

with the spectacle and I’ll abandon any task  

for their screams. Watching through binoculars 

I’m nearly blinded as they cross the sun. 

Five, six, seven times a day, they return 

from the far side of the ridge. I want 

what they have even though I can 

give it no name. Don’t say freedom. 

Don’t say longing.  Don’t tell me 

it’s some kind of sign. Can’t the shiver, 

trembly as a new born, that comes 

with my breath, be enough?